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December 12, 2005

Essay: Sure enough

Hello! Continuing with the "let's write essays" theme -- you'll soon be able to go to a category page and read them all, I'm working on it -- I present the one I just did right now in about 20 minutes. I, actually, think it's a little unfocused. But, the ending is fantastic. (This isn't just a way to get you to read the whole thing.)

As usual, feedback would be appreciated. Some things you may want to keep in mind before reading this: I don't just blog; I do write stories for the Weekly in addition to my daily dose of newspaper typos. And be safe driving home tonight. That doesn't have anything to do with the essay, I just think it's a good thing to keep in mind. Click through to continue.

Sometime in my junior year of high school, I was talking with a teacher about my college plans. I don't remember who it was; it wasn't a teacher from my school, but a moderator on some Catholic youth conference I attended.

She asked me my college choices; I gave her the rundown: Penn was my number one, but also Brown, College of New Jersey, Georgetown. Penn State if I failed all my courses senior year. (Just kidding. "We are!") She asked me what I wanted to do with my life, and I told her: I wanted to teach high school history.

"Oh," she said. "Go to College of New Jersey. Don't waste your money."

And this came from a teacher.

It wasn't her money. I don't mean any disrespect to TCNJ. I'm sure it's a fine school, and maybe in some other life it would have been the choice for me. But if Penn was my number one choice, and we -- read: my parents -- could somehow afford it, why wouldn't I go there? Okay, it was really my parents' choice, I suppose. But as long as they didn't need a house down the shore or something, I don't see why you shouldn't shoot for the stars.

The source made the comment weirder, of course. If she's a teacher, and Penn is the "better school" -- this, of course, being a relative term -- wouldn't that make me a better fit to teach high schoolers and help them out? Sure, you could say I was wasting money if I ended up making $30,000 a year teaching high school after spending $120,000 on an education, but isn't that a little defeatist attitude to take?

I ended up going to Penn, and sometime early in my sophomore year I realized I loved writing too much to not pursue that as a career. It was, of course, due to working at the college paper -- I hadn't written for my high school newspaper, nor did I really ever think of it as a job I'd like -- that I decided this was a career I wanted to focus on. And if I went somewhere else, somewhere without such a good college paper, I doubt I would have figured out what I really wanted to do. It all worked out in the end. (Except I'm making less than $30,000 a year after spending $120,000 on a college education. Shush.)

I thought of this recently when I was talking to an acquaintance who, after finding out I was in journalism, and a professional blogger at that, told me that I should be doing something better. "You're smarter than that," she said. Aside from being a total dick thing to say -- except for the "smart" compliment, I guess -- I don't really know if it has any merit. I'm doing what I currently want to do. I left another job for this one, even.

Those two comments that reminded me of each other are actually polar opposites. ("Take the extra step -- but no more steps than that" vs. "You can do better.") But I really think they do have a similar theme running through them: I know better than you. Which isn't all that surprising. From pundits to priests to columnists to bloggers to coworkers, people think they know everything.

And, obviously, I do my fair share of critiquing. But I never want to be seen as a know-it-all. If anything, I err too much on the other side, worried too much that I'm wrong. I'll take advice, criticism -- I relish both of them -- but, I don't know, sometimes people are a little too sure they have all the answers. There's not much I absolutely, truly believe in, but I do know this: I'm wary of anyone who's sure of anything.

But I could be wrong.

Posted by D-Mac on December 12, 2005 12:00 PM
Posted to Essays

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Comments

I think what happened when the person said "you're smarter than that", was they were looking at what you were doing with their own aspirations in mind, not yours.

And yeah, we all hate know-it-alls, but we find ourselves feeling like we know it all at times too :)

Posted by: R at December 16, 2005 10:43 PM

you couldnt resist eh?

lol

Posted by: Scooter at December 24, 2005 09:05 AM

I recently found that I love writing and want to pursue it, as a result of working on my college newspaper...at the College of New Jersey.

I just think that's funny.

Posted by: roz at January 10, 2006 08:45 PM